my best little buddy :)

so it is not time for my weekly blog post yet, but i thought i'd share something super quick. since sue's been slackin on her blog, someone's gotta tell you how cute her kids are, right? :)

ammon: hannah, is this left or right?
hannah: um, that is right.
ammon: choose the riiiiiight! always choose the right. NEVER choose the left because satan chooses the left.
hannah: oh, really?
ammon: yep. so i never choose the left so i won't be on satan's team!
hannah: oh good. we never ever wanna be on satan's team, huh?
ammon: yeah. when we moved here, i thought i was gonna be on satan's team. but i'm not!
hannah: uh-oh, why'd you think that?
ammon: i just did!
hannah: okay.. well, i'm glad you're not on satan's team.
ammon: me too.

look how cute! i mean cool. not cute, cool ;)

hello there, online journal.

so lately, i've been freaking out about the future and stuff. (as anyone who has talked to me in the last three months already knows.) everytime i do, i hear chandler bing's voice telling me to "eh, forget about the future and stuff." but no chandler, i can't forget. i have to make all these big decisions asap and absolutely no one can make them for me. this isn't like,

me: "hey guys, i've been trying to decide whether to grow out my bangs or cut them again."

guys: "hm, i've always liked you with bangs."

k great, problem solved. (this is actually another thing i've been stressing over but now is not the time :))

this is like, decide what you're doing right now because you don't have a whole lot of time left.

i mean, i'm probably going to be starting a "career" and getting married and having kids within the decade, so it'd be nice if i had some sort of idea of what i'm going to do with/for the rest of my life. and i can't just sit here on the jones family couch forever, i need to go to school. and get a job. and choose which school and what job and where to live and how to get there. i just turned 20 a couple days ago, and ALREADY i'm feeling the importance of it. i can no longer push my problems away because i'm "just a teenager" or i "still have forever to figure this out." because no, i don't have forever. i'm an adult now. like, a real adult, not just some teenager pretending to be one. i have to start doing adultish things. and you guys, those are the hardest things to do.

ahhhh okay, so here is the plan. i'm going to write a book. okay? easy enough. and while i am writing said book (which i expect you all to buy 20 copies of even if it's terrible), i'm going to track down that kid's book about bugs i wrote when i was like 7 and publish that. and during all this, i'm going to put up a blog post at least once a week to "refine" my writing skills (or something). because i am going to become a writer if it kills me.

so there, one problem solved, yeah? maybe people will love my blog so much they'll pay me to write it and then i can quit hobby lobby and do this for the rest of my life.

or maybe i'll just give up on this whole thing and become a medical assistant like justin says. he'll give me a job.

...right?